Well, another year has gone by and it's not real surprise to me that I haven't updated this very often. While I have made huge personal progress over the last several months, there are still some issues I need to deal with. Some of these issues deal with keeping a diary or record of days--until I can resolve them within myself any type of diary keeping is going to be difficult for me. At least I know where to start now.
Thinking on the past year and how much has changed brings me a sense of peace. This time last year I was a wreck--physically, emotionally, and spiritually. We had been moving from crisis to crisis with no break in between and very little support. Between the accident and health issues, school, work, family issues, trying to find a place to live, not knowing whether J would need surgery, or even if he would survive, to what amounted to a huge betrayal by family--there was just nothing left of me for me.
At the end of this year, there are still some huge challenges. But I'm stronger now, more able to accept that there are things in life that I cannot control and more willing to bend instead of breaking when life throws too many things for me to deal with all at once. There have been lessons learned and huge gains made on this journey---the path may have been hard but what has been gained is priceless.
Life as a fanwoman
9 years ago
