Panic

I'm not there.....yet. It's close. Very close. I now have confirmation that DH's "full time" employment is not sufficient enough to cover even ONE of our monthly bills and with my working hours cut in half, screwed does not even BEGIN to describe our situation.

I am hoping the electric company sends a shut off notice before shutting the electricity off so we can apply for assistance. I am hoping that I can somehow manage to work enough to cover the shortfall in RENT so we are not homeless again this winter. I have given up on my car-I am just hoping we can keep it together long enough for me to find more work.

I need to find a job--at this point preferably one where I can work a couple overnights a week since I'm not having much luck in my field. Not sure how much more of this I can take before I crack. If it's not one thing, it's another. We'll get through this, we always do but I'm worried about how much more of ME I'll lose in the process.

I can be optimistic in the afternoon, right now I feel hopeless.